"When
I croak, when people come in to look through all my things, what will it say
about my life?"
A little less than a year ago,
Denzil Pugh wrote these words on his blog. After losing his mother, going
through her things and facing his own mortality, he contemplated his legacy. We
all want to leave our mark on the world, to be remembered.
Denzil will be remembered. It may
not be world-wide or go down in the annuals of human history, but he left a
legacy. Through his years of employment at the bookstores Chapter 11 and
Borders, Denzil shared a love of books with hundreds of people. Customers and
employees alike were impressed with his knowledge. There was nothing he loved
more than connecting people with books that he thought they would enjoy. When
Borders went out of business, he worked for Lifeway Christian Bookstores to
stay around books. To further that connection, he began to volunteer with the
Friends of the Nancy Guinn Library, where he was a valued member, and with the
Friends of Georgia Libraries, a state-wide library advocacy group. Recently, he
had relocated to Dallas, TX to work at the Brookhaven College bookstore.
Beyond his passion for books,
Denzil was a sweet spirit with an impish sense of humor. He could make any
conversation better (or worse) with a perfectly timed inappropriate comment.
Even when things were difficult, he maintained an optimistic outlook. A friend
referred to him as a “Tigger in a World of Eeeyores”, referencing Randy
Pausch’s The Last Lecture. Denzil
often referred to himself as Peter Pan, stating that he never wanted to grow
up. He always maintained that childlike sense of wonder. He loved nature and
hiking, and often felt most inspired walking alone on nature trails. He had an
amazing work ethic, and wanted nothing more than to be appreciated and
recognized for his talents and dedication. He was an amazing writer, with a
unique and perceptive view of pop culture, world events, and cartoons. His work
can still be read at: http://denzilpugh.blogspot.com/
We all want to leave a legacy. We
want to think that the world is better for having us in it, and the truth is,
very few of us are indispensable. If we passed on, the world would keep
turning. But on May 12, the world stopped spinning for a bit. We lost one of
the very best of us. Even if only a small percentage of people got to meet
Denzil personally, his loss was felt. The world was better with him in it, and
now those of us who were lucky enough to be his family and his friends owe it
to him to be worthy of that legacy – to live life with a Tigger attitude, to
work hard and keep dreaming, and to foster a love of literacy and literature in
all we meet.
“I
learned this, at least, by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in
the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has
imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.”
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden: Or, Life in the Woods
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden: Or, Life in the Woods